I knew it!

I knew this would happen one day.  I just didn't know how I would react to it!  2 short stories I imagined would make great stories, the plot, the research, the people, the ending all sounded great in my head, but when it came to writing it, well what a lot of tosh is all I can say.  I've added junk folders to my topic folders, that's probably the most constructive thing I've done today.  How do I write for 20minutes or 500 words and tell myself it's a business and I must do it if this happens every time I wrote an idea down?
I guess welcome to 'our world' would be appropriate, you guys, the real witers who do this daily must really struggle at times, I take my hat off to you.  I am going do it!!  :)

Does anyone else feel empty when getting close to the end of a book.  I don't think i'm close but I can see the finishing line and it has left me feeling a little flat.  How do I pick myself up and move on?
But then I come across James Herbert and I've been waiting for Ash for months so i'm all excited again.  Wish I could tell a story the way he does - only better!

This just keeps on getting harder!  I've got a plan and I'm sticking to it but everytime I make a point I have to find a way of making the cross over.  That in itself isn't hard but finding new ways is.  Then I have to remind myself that if it was easy then everybody would be doing it, and write from the heart edit with your head, and if you don't believe it your reader won't and........
I am trying to write 500 words a day, but does editting and re-writing count?  I've tried but sometimes it takes me all day to write 500 words, at least 500 that mean anything and I'm betting by tomorrow it will be reduced to 400 and I'll have to write 600 to catch up....
Anybody else feeling the strain?

time goes by.....

so I haven't blogged for awhile but that is because I, and I would like to say I have been busy writing but, I haven't!  I came to an upexpected crossroads.  I was at a point where quite tamely my story was reaching a conclusion and apart from adding some fancy bits was all over.  The problem was, it was so open to a lot more in the way of sub plots and twists that I had a complete re-think.  Now I have added new chapters in the middle, don't panic they are strategically placed, and created new characters and am enjoying a new lease of research and writing.  I did read a book called 'Born to Run' and what a fascinating read, and not just to help me with my running but other stories that are hiden in there!
Bfn

Having left the writing alone for a while, I'm beginning to see why it's a job.  I get the impression that if read what I have written I'll get back into the feel for the story and then I should be able to write in the same style and with sense of feeling.  I just don't want to loose the enjoyment of writing, especially as I'm enjoying what I'm currently writing.
Later guys

connecting the t's and dotting the i's

I've written and re-written and edited and read until I'm blue in the face, now despite all my research and dare I say enjoyment, I'm stuck, and I don't think this will be the last time I mention it either.  I just have to find a way between the chapters.  Maybe I'll read a little, or play cards whichever is the most useless!!

and then.....

Half past 4 this morning I find the missing link but I was too tired too get up and write it down.  Fortunately I remembered what i thought and feel much better now.  Shame I couldn't amend the pages because there was too much, just can't win sometimes.

it just doesn't happen

I try and I try and I try again, but sometimes it just doesn't happen.  According to some, if you stumble across writers block or run out of ideas, just write and it will come back to you.  well I tried and it just didn't happen........

really?

Am I really expected to write when I'm dying?  I have a man sized cold, rhinitus, headache, etc and I can't think straight...........manybe this is the perfect time to write because it won't make sense - hey bingo!!  Feel better already, sorry gonna sneeze.......

and this isn't even a bad day!

No matter how hard I try it just seems that I can't get the writing juices to flow.  It doesn't help that I keep editing and re-writing the same piece, until at some point I've completely changed it again.  I've already started this particular piece again but it keeps turning into the piece I've tried to leave behind!
I hoped that just writing and writing for a while would bring a spark or something that would further the story but I've hit a wall.  Normally I would research something but I keep returning to this piece as if it's a bit that needs to be written and finalised before I can move on!  Oh well.....

hell fire and brimstone

Writing this just isnt working for me, today I can't even spell my name right.  I'm going to work early to try and shake off what ever you writers get when the bottom falls out.
Thanks for trying to understand!
(I have a feeling that tea and a chocolate muffin might do the trick :))

and then guess what?

I spent an entire day thinking up bits and pieces for the plot and stuff and found myself devoid of any fresh thoughts ideas, flat so I read my new book and came up with another idea, not one I can use here but for futrure reference.  So back to my current project I'm thinking that maybe I need to read what I've written to get in the mood and get creative...

Aaaaarrrggghhhhhhhhhhhh

So someone once said, "If you wake up writing then you are a writer!"  I'd love to agree, but I woke up thinking 'What a load of crap, why bother!'  I really felt like I'd written a load of rubbish and that it wasn't worth carrying on with.   And after a while of getting my pencil, rubber, sharpener and paper out I played a game of football on my PS3, lost, and wished I hadn't bothered!! But by now my regime had gone out of the window, I seem to be able to write when I have an empty mind, which I know my son's would say is all of the time.........but it I prefer not to have the thoughts of the world on my mind, I don't want to have listened to the news or the weather or the sport or the business news, I want an empty head!  So in a compromise I researched the characters that might feature and then it wasn't so bad.
tomorrow they say is another day........

dry up

So having got myself back on track and convincing myself that it's actually not a bad idea and then having sat down in front of the computer to continue, can't think of a bloody thing to write!
But it is a business so I write anyway shame it isn't what I wanted because it felt good but I'll try again soon.
Frustrating and lonely business this writing. :)

and the fight goes on......

Then you carry on the good fight and it becomes more complicated and the plan goes out of the window and you try to keep it simple and then it doesn't seem so great, but it becomes neccesary to write on just incase it falls back into line or you hope something hits between the eyes and it becomes great again.....

then you fight back!

So having regretted ever starting the brilliant idea that just popped into my head and doing a bit of research and then realising that somebody else has beaten you to it and better than you to boot. I gave up because it sucks!
But today, having researched a bit more and with the help of some red stuff, another idea popped into my head, and I'm back on the road again..... till next time of course :)

and then it hits you.....

Wham just like that an idea pops into your head and you think wow yes that's brilliant and you search for pen pencil paper marker, that confusion just shows you I didn't have anything to write on or with when this light bulb came on.  So frantically searching whilst my brain is in overdrive and I can't begin to write down the original thoughts as I have moved on and have created characters plot and the final words spoken by my hero, signed the film rights, envisage multiple serial books and films and then.....
crap, it just won't work!!!!!!!
Why does somebody have to write and publish my ideas before I do??

Oh well, just a thought, now there's an idea........

another first

I'm delighted to say that I have ticked off another item on my bucket list.  I have entered a short writing competition!  You will forgive me if I don't tell you which one, I don't need any competition from you guys - okay?
Now I am in it to win it!
But I'm still a newcomer to this world and I haven't really done the business and found an agent, or submitted any material to a publisher, but it is a start, albeit a small one.
Now I need inspiration for a third story, any ideas, something spooky please, I keep trying but it all ends up very lame, maybe I need some new scary words!!

long long road

So I've written another short story, about 1540 words but it needs attention, lots of work doing to it.  They say that if you wake up writing then you were born to be a writer, it just takes time to actually get past the daily grind, the washing up, the school run, the cup of coffee, the other cup of coffee, reading emails.  This is probably what makes it hard for me.  When I was studying I found that I needed to get up really early so that I had an empty head to put all my studying into.  If I'd finished all my chores then my head would've been filled with the news, the weather, driving, and all the other gumf that comes with it, so I found it hard to clear my head and write.  So then I'd play PES 2012 on my playstation and forget all about writing and regret it for the rest of the day.
Somewhere along the line there is a happy medium and I will find it, someday!

no way

I have finally taken the plunge, yep and still waiting to get wet, it's a long way down, the waiting is a killer.  Maybe that should be a title for my next story??
Having completed a creative writing course, thanks to my wife, who has had to put up with my constant moaning about me wanting to write a book, she bought me a course!!  So now that I have finished the course I have taken the next step and sent a short story to an online magazine for acceptance/rejection.
Hence still waiting.
Whatever next!!